Committment???

Last week was not a good week. There was no school on Monday so the kids were home with me and not at daycare which threw off my schedule. Karsyn will not stay in the daycare at the gym still so I can't take them with me. Tuesday was Mardi Gras and I had a hard time saying no to the "girls" for drinks after work. Neil took the kids Tuesday and Wednesday only so I was down to only one MAYBE two days at the gym. After all is said and done I didn't go to the gym one time!!! I ponder over the mixed feelings of self loathing and self betrayal of my staying committed. Why?? Why is it so hard to keep with my progress. I say that lightly bc I don't really see any progress. I have been working out three days a week for four weeks and not shed one pound. I have watched my eating within reason. I read on a fitness site about working out until you felt like throwing up, I was like well I never get to that point?? Why am I having a hard time pushing myself to go to the next level?

Fresh start

I got up early this morning and went straight to the gym. I was thinking I should start back at week 2 since it had been so long since I made it to the gym. I got up stairs, got on the treadmill and started to walk. I upped the speed and I just started running. I ran for 3 minutes, winded but I did it:) So I am going to continue on my journey with week 3. Tomorrow is weights and no treadmill. I have started to add this to my routine. It was a good day:)